You be the Prince & I'll be the Princess

I'm a hopeless romantic.

It's probably because I've spent too much time in the land of fiction, but I tend to live my life out inside my head. It's my greatest flaw.

Not only am I a hopeless romantic, but I'm also a huge chicken.
Not a good combination at all.
I have a bad case of the 'should have's...
I should have told him how I felt
I should have said yes
I should have had some guts.

I've always had an overactive imagination. It's probably why I love reading so much; I can truly escape - I can close my eyes and enter Narnia, or be inside Hogwarts, or even be at the centre of a fairy tale. This is probably the reason why I do so well on my own, I can always enter these dream worlds and be in a better place than the one I have left.

I live a whole life inside my head. I dream of one day meeting the One. I dream of someone holding a boombox outside my window, of kissing in the pouring rain, of being serenaded with a guitar in hand. We'd cuddle on the couch and watch movies together. He'd get along with my friends. Just looking into his eyes would make me feel all gooey inside. I dream of the great literary heroes paling in comparison next to my guy.

I want a story that starts with Once Upon a Time...
And ends with a happily ever after

But what does this lead to? Unrealistic expectations. Prince Charming exist, and even if he did, I'm the furthest thing from Cinderella. I'm a girl who loves watching hockey, drinking beer, hell, I can belch louder than most of the guys I know. I'm not the type of girl a guy sees from across the room and time stands still. I'm the type of girl who laughs a little too hard at a dirty joke. Girls like me don't get the leading roles, girls like me are there in the background, supporting cast.

I want so desperately for these grand gestures of love to really exist. But the truth is they're as much fantasy as LOTR. And yet, despite myself, I always seem to be waiting for something. Waiting for that picture perfect romance.

Maybe one day....

But for now I'm
Just Another Wide Eyed Girl

Here goes nothing...

I've spent my entire life writing, whether it be journaling, short stories, even a novel. It's been a form of therapy in hard times and my creative outlet. There are so many times when I can almost feel a story coursing through my veins just begging to be let out.

My cousin, an avid blogger and social media queen (me? I can barely handle facebook and to be perfectly honest twitter kind of scares me) suggested I try blogging. I can't think of anyone that would find my thoughts interesting and scoffed it off, but today I'm taking a leap and trying something different. It's not about being read (I honestly can't see anybody that would be reading this, and if you are kudos to you!) it's simply about doing for the sake of doing it.

So...

I should probably start this off by saying a little something about myself

I'm Canadian and proud of it! Like any good Canadian girl, I love hockey; like any great Canadian girl, I love the the Leafs. I recently moved out on my own to downtown Toronto, I'm a suburbs child to the core and am still terrified of the city. My heart pounds in fear just walking past homeless people.

I've worked at Starbucks for the past 2 years and yet hate coffee, don't drink a drop of it.
I recently have decided to go back to school so I can have a future aside from pouring coffee for caffeine deprived people at ungodly hours of the morning.

I'm a huge bookworm, with most of my childhood being spent with my nose in a book.
Harry Potter has made a bigger impact on my life than any singular person has.

I'm a movie junkie and have a little bit of an addiction to buying DVDs.

I'm a chrononberg, the term my boss coined to say that I have Chron's disease. It's actually a really quite disgusting disease and has caused a lot of hardships and pain. In the end getting through this and finding a lifestyle that suits my health needs has made me a stronger person - and helped me realize that friends who will stand by you when you curled up in pain are the truest kind; and with friends like that you can get through anything.

Unlike most girls my age I have no problems being alone, I much prefer it that way. I've never really had a real boyfriend, most of my friends say it's because I'm too picky, I see it as not being about to compromise on what I want. There are a lot of times I will say no to going out to a party or a bar in favour of staying home and watching a movie or read a good book.


All in all I really am
Just Another Wide Eyed Girl

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